2016 - i'm ready to feel you.

During my meditation retreat in Costa Rica I had a really powerful experience on the day that I meditated (via the Vedic Rounding process) for 4 hours. I felt more connected to myself, my body and my needs more in that moment than I ever had. I literally felt a breakthrough occur - as if all of a sudden I could see something that I wasn't able to connect with at any point prior because it was a barrier - and now it had become a breakthrough. I had some enlightening moments come to my mind's eye about what I need more of in my life and how I want that to translate. At the core of all of it was I want and need to connect more to my sense of feeling - whether that be through touch or something more somatic occurring inside of me. In a way what I'm saying is somewhat abstract yet also to me it's quite clear.

So with this premonition if you will, I'm going out on a limb and declaring my word theme for 2016 to be FEELING.

I want to challenge myself to a new level of consciousness - to be not just aware of what I'm feeling cognitively but to really sit in the actually feelings within my body. In order to do this I will be far more present with myself and my surroundings. I want to seek things to do in my life that will bring about more experiences for me to feel - maybe some things for me that would normally be terrifying but instead i'm going to seek out the exhilaration they can bring (like when I went ziplining in Costa Rica and thought I'd be scared to death and instead I felt so incredibly alive). I'm considering jumping out of a plane before I turn 40 this summer - or when I turn 40 to set the tone for this next decade - this would be a great example of what I'm talking about.

I also want to keep feeling with my heart. In 2015 I worked very hard to be open and allow myself to follow my heart despite the fears of being hurt. I'm super proud of how I showed up for myself in that way last year. And it feels like it was the perfect primer for how I want to connect my heart, body, and soul that much more to my feelings, to touch, to intimacy this year.

I'm also going to be stretching myself in new and big ways this year with my business. I want to be so incredibly present so I can appreciate the power of growth inside of my body vs worrying about the future if it's going to "work", if I'll be successful etc. Because if I've learned anything in these past four years being in business for myself, it's that it 'tis a journey full of ups and downs and trusting the ride while never giving up is among the best you can do for yourself. So this year, as I kick off year FIVE of my business, I'm going to be more present than ever before and fully enjoy the ride - I'm going to feel every single aspect of it and I cannot wait.

So 2016, I welcome you. I'm already feeling the power of you. I'm ready to feel you and all of the experiences you have to offer me more than anything I've ever felt before. It already feels amazing just writing this!