In keeping with some of my annual traditions, I feel I need to both recap 2018 and share my theme word for 2019 all in one. So here goes...
2018 from pure stream of conscious, here's what comes up: more growth, more heart break, lots of healing, a discovery of what true love really feels like, comedy - a newly discovered love of stand up comedy and PERFORMING, exhilarating keynotes, opportunities, business growth, feeling seen for my gifts (what a gift!), witnessing love in hilton head, feeling inspired in park city, conquering a great fear of deep water and learning to tread water for a while!!, traveled and worked in cool cities - new york (got to the 911 memorial finally, WOW), portland, philadelphia - for work!, san francisco, LA, and lots of awesome work in Austin as well, turning my awesome house into a home, another FUN year with koko who turned 7, and all in all another year surrounded by awesome friends and my healthy family - both of which make life worth living each day. Super grateful to have another year of health in my own life and learning to attract my things around me that are healthy and leaving the things and people who are triggering BEHIND.
So onto 2019, I welcome you! You started off with a bang right out the gate causing me to theme the year BELIEVE. So I order my bracket from MyIntent.Org(LOVE!) and told myself - this is your year, believe that and know that you're the only thing that can get in the way of that being the truth. So I wanted to look at that message on my wrist every single day. Despite my best of intentions, the one thing I thought I was believing in the most - that I had met the love of my life - hasn't worked out as smoothly as originally anticipated. I continue to learn over and over when people say it really is two things with love - 1) the person and 2) the timing. So while I finally feel I found the right person, and the timing is right for me, it doesn't appear to be for him. My heart still believes in the connection we have so time will tell. And yet, in that space between, I know it will require a certain amount of letting go to allow me to keep showing up for me and living a full life honoring all that I want for myself.
I've also learned some things that I'd like to "let go" of when it comes to how I show up in relationships. I've grown and evolved so much over the last 9 years. I've made major shifts. AND, what a reminder that even though we grow and evolve, there are still things deep within us that either never go away or take a lot of time and effort to really shift. I've always loved a good challenge so I want to assure the things I see that keep getting in my way are things that I can do better on. And that will require some letting go of things no longer serving me. One being "EXPECTATIONS."
So...that leaves me feeling like so far 2019 is shaking up to be a space between letting go and believing. And the rest is up to fate...can't wait to see where it all shakes out.
Cheers, and happy belated new year if anyone is still out there reading :)
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