I've stood in this same very spot and watched many of similar beautiful sunsets but today felt different. I looked out onto the blue ocean and beautiful orange and pink sky and thought to myself--Mom, I hope you're with me. Because when I told her 2 years ago that I was coming to CA to paint a new canvas for myself--that's all I was able to say. That I wanted a new journey for myself but I wasn't quite sure where I was headed, other than West. And even despite that, my mom became my biggest cheerleader.
And now, that journey is crystal clear. And today I launched myself one more step closer to where I want my future to be. And I can't even tell you how amazing that feels. And how hard it is to not have my mom to share it with. I'm just dying to pick the phone up and say, "mom, i'm starting the new canvas, and it's going to be beautiful."
But I have to believe she knows and is smiling as a result. And just to reassure myself I listen to Forever Young and how she picked that song for us back when I was 13 and every time I listen to it, it's just more and more meaningful. "Whatever road you choose, I'm right behind you win or lose" is what stuck with me today, and while it's not her voice telling me, it is words she would've used and so I take those words and hold onto them with dear life as I go one step closer to my dream.
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