trusting the journey

Feeling very full of thought tonight so this one could read a bit raw. Thursday nights are the night of my grief group and tonight we had to say an early goodbye to one of our group members due to their job re-locating them. It's a bummer because we still have about another year left of a group but it was also truly rewarding and inspiring to see how far this person has already come. And it just reminds you whether it's grief or life, we're all on a journey of some sort. And every journey is full of twists and turns, highs and lows. And I believe it's how you handle those moments that define you more than the journey itself.

What do I mean by that? I mean it's your ability to sit in those highs and lows and to feel them, really really feel them. And then to move through them and have the ability to look back and learn. Learn about yourself mostly. What did you need to get through those moments, especially the tough ones. What made the highs high? And when you face something similar next time, what can you bring with you to make it better?

I'm finding myself in a bit of a lull along my dating journey. Boy does it ever come with highs and lows and yea, twists and turns as well. I'm trying to fully embrace the process and all that goes with it and just "date" but I'm finding it's very counter to who I am. I don't want to date, I want to connect, I want to meet in the middle, I want to collaborate, I want to be in sync, I want my other half. And quite frankly I'm beginning to wonder when we all have such stuff going on in our hearts and minds how any two people actually manage to align at the right place, right time wanting the same things. Right now it feels like a damn miracle waiting to happen.

But, with that said, I'm still choosing to embrace the unknown and to the best of my ability trust the journey. Trust that one day, like I do today in many areas of my life, I'll look back and know exactly why it went quite like this.