highs and lows

I'm finding myself in an interesting space right now. I'm experiencing an incredible high with my business. Closing out year 4 I'm submitting proposals for work that I only could dream about the last few years. I'm thinking to myself if I get all this work what would I do? I've never been fortunate enough to have to contemplate this. And it's not just proposals for work - it's high profile, super high potential, and exactly in my sweet spot work. It's the very work that I've sought out to get under the vision I've held true to these past four years for my business. On top of all that I'm partnering with a colleague on a new venture that's got me super excited as well. Feels like the timing is lining up and the universe is telling me this is where my focus should be because opportunity and possibility surrounds me and my business. Come to think of it, the psychic did say I'd have a lot of 'luck' in my business by year's end. Finally it feels like it's all happening...with work.

Then there's my heart and how it's still stuck in a space that's making it beat in a way that it never quite has before while it breaks in a way that is all too familiar because once again, same story, the timing just isn't right yet. This is causing the lowest of low for me. Last night I had one of those moments where you realize you have no other choice but to look straight on at the very thing you've been trying to look past. And something shifted in me - I saw something I've yet to see - and it's brought on a deep heart ache that I haven't felt in a very, very long time. The kind where the water works start and you literally can't stop the tears. I literally cried halfway through my flight home and then the sweet older lady next to me (of course i'm in the middle seat) looks at me and says - "I'm sure there's not but is there anything I can do to help?" People are kind. Thank you nice lady and I'm sorry for sobbing next to you for over an hour.

So yeah, highs and lows. It's crazy. I'm finding myself pulling out every tool I have in my coaching toolbox to move through this:

Self compassion - speak kindly to myself, tell myself what I would tell a friend who's heart is breaking. It will be ok, take the time you need to heal, take care of yourself.

Self love - trust and know and never doubt that I am worthy. That sometimes timing really sucks and it has nothing to do with me. Trust that.

Gratitude - see, really see, the things that surround you that are amazing. My health, the health of those I love, the support and love that surrounds me, the thriving business I've been able to build 100% on my own, koko, and so much more. Focus on this. Every. Single. Day.

If you have any other tools on what helps you move through highs and lows - I'd love to hear. Thanks for reading - I'm grateful for you, too.