keeping it real.

In this moment I'm so struck by my last post. First, I feel incredibly grateful that I write on this blog and can return to it in times like now to remind myself of my own inner wisdom. I couldn't feel further from the person who wrote that last post in this moment. I've had a few things not pan out in the way of work not coming through and a relationship winding up nothing like I imagined and I'm realizing the toll it's taken on me - probably mostly because I'm so so so hard on myself. Rather than focusing on all that I do have, all the progress I have made, I get stuck on what's not working and where I feel I need to be doing better. Perhaps growing up with a father who was perpetually negative really does impact your ability to see the good in things in times of stress.

Needless to say I'm working on this and working to bash that pattern to death, thanks to Hoffman. Because I sure can see how it's not serving me to hold a negative view and to then beat myself up over simply being human.

So in this moment I'm not sure I have much to say other than I'm acknowleding myself in a rough space, accepting that I'm not super human and that even though I've grown tremendously (esp over this past year) that doesn't mean I'm "done" and experiencing some residual effects from patterns that have been with me since childhood is 100% normal and natural.

This is my best attempt at publicly finding some self compassion and a whole lot of self love. It's not easy for me and it's a good reminder that my clients are often struggling to find the same. But for now I'm going to choose to remind myself that I'm am loving, I am love and I am lovable. Thanks, Hoffman. xo