It's funny where your mind travels when away on vacation. When you don't have the daily grind of life to focus on, or be distracted by. As much as mine has focused on the sheer beauty that surrounds me here in Maui, it's also wondered quite a bit. And that wondering has mostly landed back in the same place...my mom. I can't help but think about all the things I'd love to tell her from this trip. How she SO loved it in Hawaii when she and my dad finally made it here back in 2004. She just went on and on about how lush and beautiful it was. I just remembered how she loved it so. So I know she's looking down feeling so happy that I too am now experiencing it. And she's probably so proud that I'm here with two gal friends who I made as brand new friends in a new "big city" after relocating myself in my 30's to start anew. So knowing she's proud and happy makes me smile. But for the most part I just really, really miss her and have wanted to call her or text her 100x a day since being here. While I always want to reach out to her, often I feel sometimes life becomes monotonous and between work, life and the bs in between, I find sometimes while I wish I could call to hear her voice and whatever is going on in her life, I may not feel I have something super interesting to tell her. But being away from all that, enjoying myself in a place I know she loved, well I can think of so many things I wish I could tell her.
And that's really, really tough. There's just no sugar coating it.
So as I wind down my trip...now here in the town of Hana (still in Maui) I think of my mom. As I look outside my condo and see the beautiful blue water and the ongoing sound of waves crashing, I think how much I love and miss her. And as I sip my white wine and get ready to go out for another lovely dinner, I smile and think...I'm enjoying life just as mom would like. And I hear her say, you go girl.
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