first comes clarity, then a decision.

Late breaking news, moments ago I had a moment of clarity. I'm giving my landlord my 30 days notice despite not having found an apartment yet. I realized, what's the worst that could happen? I pack up and move out and keep my stuff in storage for a few weeks -- I've got plenty of friends who I'm sure would take me in and that wouldn't be bad to save on yet another month's rent. And best case, I find a great spot to move into in the next couple weeks and I'm in by the end of June. Either way, I've just decided I can't waste another moment fretting about knowing I need to sell shit and pack everything up. So I'm gonna just start putting the plans into action and trust that the rest will fall into place. Just like when I put my house on the market back in 2009 and 30 days later it was sold, I had given notice at my job and I had found a new home in LA. I put it out there and the rest fell into place.

Perhaps it was my kitchen sink backing up for the third time and the 3 minute super annoying message from the landlord that I'm abusing the (million year old) pipes -- HA -- maybe it was that that sent me over the edge. Or maybe it was the exact sign I needed with today being June 1 and my landlord already having my last month's rent as part of my deposit that it just feels like the right time to not write a big fat check for June's rent but instead drop a note that says i'll be out by june 30th. So with that, I feel so relived to just have taken the first step toward this journey...and now I'm one step further along in moving than I was yesterday. Hooray for that.