Yesterday was Yom Kippur, the day where we atone, fast, reflect, pray and forgive. And I did just that. After feeling very moved and inspired from the 4 hours of services (the Rabbi is absolutely incredible), I spent some time thinking of areas in my life where I need to forgive or more importantly "let go." Thoughts and stories that may be based on past experience and actual fact but they are in the past -- so by bringing them into the present, well, I've come to realize that's not really serving me. So I did some journaling and go in touch with what I need to let go of. And today I feel lighter.
I also spent the day reflecting and remembering my mom. I pulled out the box of special things I like to look through sometimes including my book of memories, the cards she's given me and our picture book of our visit in LA. I even showed KoKo some of it as he was snuggled up next to me as I combed through all of the memories :) While it's sad like it will always be sad, it wasn't something I was crying my eyes out about -- instead it was just nice to have some time to remember, and smile. So that's what I did. And then I broke my fast with mom's homemade apple pie recipe that I had made the day before. Of course I totally missed having my family around but I made the most of the day, I honored it in the way that I needed to.
And now I'm quite encouraged at the thought of the new year -- feeling lighter, inspired and motivated to make it a great one -- personally and professionally. And my "oath" to myself: stay true to me, who I am today and each day. What do I meant by that? Stay present, in TODAY. So don't try to figure out what I need in a year or 6 months, worry about what I need today, honor and fulfill that and believe the rest will happen as it's suppose to. So here's to that -- hold me to it. xoxo
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