moments in time

People come into our lives and sometimes only stay for just a lil while -- maybe even an instance or a few weeks or months. Yet what I continue to learn is the time and duration isn't what matters but the impact they were able to make. Some people just have that gift that no matter how long their presence remains, their wisdom and gifts live long after. I recently met one of those people.

It's tough to not let your mind wander and to question -- why is this person appearing in my life at this time? Is there a greater purpose? Will it be clear in time? While I don't have those answers today, I do believe that to be the case. That people are placed throughout our journey and certain paths are meant to cross. And it's up to us to discover along the way, sometimes months or years later, why it was so -- especially because so often we're unable to see the "why" in the present.

I know for me, this person was a breath of fresh air that I didn't realize how much I was in need of inhaling. It's like meeting someone that embodies so many of the things that matter to you while having the ability to drop pearls of wisdom without even trying to. And given that my Nana and Mom are the top two people that have made me see and appreciate the power in wisdom, this was pretty powerful for me. And all the while having the ability to put a smile on my face that was larger than life -- the kind of smile that I can look back on my life and remember select moments when I could step outside of myself with the awareness that this smile was different than others -- it was real. Another thing that's very powerful for me. And the ability to sit in and truly see the present moment -- the now. To let go of the attachments of yesterday and the expectations of tomorrow and instead see the beauty in today. Powerful. Combine these things and others -- and wow, talk about impact. And (sadly) I now see after four years in LA...it's rather rare to truly connect with people this real, and with this much depth.

So I suppose as I sit here and write I'm already able to see the gifts that this person has left me. Yet I still can't help but wonder why now and why so short? Was it to help me shed yet another layer of that inner amour that we all wear? Was it to help me clear my eyes so that I'll see that much more clearly when these qualities cross my path the next time? Was it just to have me experience the power of a moment in time and give me the gusto to settle for nothing less? These are the things I ponder...and the things that I imagine some day, at some other point in time, I'll know if it's one of these reasons or a whole other one.

And I'd be lying if I wasn't curious enough to seek out some answers when I go to see my first psychic medium a week from Thursday. I'm going with the hope to gain some insight into my future while also hoping to connect with my mom and hear anything she has to say. Lately I've had an overwhelming feeling that she's got a message (or more than one knowing her :) for me about love. And I'm not quite sure if it's that she now has the message or if I'm just now ready to hear it and go seek it out. So that is what I'm doing. On July 25th I will see a medium and listen to what he sees and hears. Stay tuned for that.

But until then, and for now, we all need to just keep reminding ourselves that after yesterday and before tomorrow lies today -- and today we need to take a long deep breath, look around and see the beauty in all that's around us. Because at the end of the day, all we really have right now is this moment in time.