sometimes i hate marketing.

sometimes i hate marketing. like during the month of May when my inbox gets spammed with "deals" for mother's day. "treat your mom to this, come to mother's day brunch here, have you shown your mom how special she is lately?" it's so hard because this used to be a holiday that i loved. a day, in addition to my mom's birthday, where it was all about making her feel every bit as amazing as she was and she deserved. and i just loved picking out the perfect card for my mom and figuring out the most special way to show her how much i loved and appreciated her. and man, what i would give to have that opportunity again--just about anything. i like to think that i move through life focusing on the good in all things and finding the silver lining. after all, that's the line i wrote for my business: the silver lining lies within. but sometimes it can be really hard to find. like on a day like mother's day. where's the silver lining in that? mine is gone and i lost her way sooner than i should have and i miss her more than i ever thought any emotion in my entire life was possible to feel. but even with all that, i'm sure by sunday i'll find a way to honor and celebrate the mom that i was lucky enough to have. and i'll find a way to cherish her memory and our relationship. i'll find a way to connect to her, to remind myself of the incredibly powerful bond we had. and i'll let myself believe, even if for only a moment, that she's honoring and remembering and loving and looking down on me at that very same moment. and for maybe just a minute, i'll let myself believe she's not really gone; she's just living in place where i can't see her but the bond that we share is still as strong as it ever was.

happy mother's day to the most amazing mom in the world, my mom.