adored in austin

I've never been much of a country music fan, or said another way I just never listened to much of it and/or knew much of it growing up in Philadelphia. However now living in Austin TX I find myself hitting skip on the radio stations until I find a country music song. While I don't have much context or comparison (some people say country music in Austin is "different" it't not like other country and I have no idea what that means) I'm finding myself enjoying it so much because so many songs are men singing about how much they love, lust, and adore their lady. It's so inspiring to drive around listening to these lyrics and imagining a man singing them about me or better yet, feeling them for me.

I said I was coming to Austin ready to find love, and that I am. I'm also being reminded that when I approach dating or love the way I approach all other areas of my life - with focus, determination, and a relentless attitude of 'failure is never an option' it doesn't go so well. So while it feels very against my style and against my desires, I'm stepping back and I'm gonna let love find me. Because at the end of the day I know that I want to feel lusted after, loved, and adored. And the the only way I'll ever truly feel that and know it to be authentic and genuine is if I ALLOW it to happen vs trying to create it.

So here I am Austin - I'm ready to be the lady you covet in all your country songs. So I'm gonna keep focusing on being my best self, having the time of my life, and living an authentic life with confidence and peace...and this time around I'm just gonna sit back and trust the rest will come when it's suppose to.